Recently been feeling down and out. ORD for me is not something to celebrate about. Brought it all upon myself I suppose. All the procrastination and delaying of the inevitable. All carries on to other aspects of my life. Like the proverbial spilled ink or milk. Whichever. Woke up with extremely negative and depressing thoughts concerning _ . Makes me want to give up there and then. Smashing Pumpkins isn't helping either. I'm lagging behind again. Everyone is leaving me behind. It's okay if you don't give a shit about all this.