Past few weeks have been trying.

I don't know where my problem lies, or what it is for that matter. The current state of my life is pretty stable. Perhaps this means that what is bothering me is something from the past. I read something off an astrology card about my star sign at the esplanade. Big astrology fan. It says that love is a big part of our lives. Librans in general. How true. That was what I had in mind the first time I saw it. What is the problem then? With this new insight? I've changed. From what I used to be. So long ago. With all the failures and the peer pressure, I've given up on being like that so much so that if I revert back to my old ways, it seems pretentious to me and questionable to others. It's not me anymore. And there's where part of the problem lies. I'm not talking about being happy here. And this hinders me. It's vexing. And, "Toh Yanxi
is caring about someone who doesn't understand while those who care about him are being ignored. Being an idiot that is." which is on my facebook is totally true. I'm sorry, to those that do.