Getting tired of all this happiness bullshit. Another aspect that is getting me down is how much I care about other people. Some out of genuine concern and some out of plain curiosity and 'busibodiness'. And, my sensitivity. It's not like the girls always say, he's such a sensitive guy etc, this is something totally different. This is something that is not desirable and is "(something)". Something bordering on paranoia. Maybe if i not cared so much about anything much, I would be happier.

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.