Learned a few things about happiness the past few days. One, it is important to be happy, but to be sociable, that is very important too. And sometimes, actually most of the time, these two go hand in hand. People need physical, vocal or visual confirmation that you are happy, before believing you're happy. It's a new aim for me. To be happy and sociable. Also, it's hard to be happy when people around you are not happy. I know it sounds stupid but sometimes people expect you to be happy when they are not. It's very complex. I don't know why being happy has to be so complex. Being emo is so much easier. You don't have to care about anybody else. It's such a selfish yet self preserving emotion. And I got tested today and I failed the test. I got pissed and angry and irritated. I though t I could have done better. I'm developing the same reaction as somebody else whom I told against having this type of reaction. I'm not practicing what I preach. I hope this doesn't affect me being happy and trying to maintain being happy. That sounds quite selfish right? I refute that. I've been doing so much, making concessions on MY part. They DON'T see it. What the fuck? No, I can't put it that way. Makes me seem like I'm pleading my case to everyone else; self pity. Oh wells.

On another note. I just sold Claire, my acoustic bass. It was quite a sad moment really. Like something out of the movies. As the buyer walked away, I kept looking back at her. There's this feeling of loss. Felt quite sad. Oh well indeed.

Everything will be alright.
Everything should be alright.
Everything might be alright.