Realized that music is more effective for me than words or speech in expression. I mean music. Not songs. Generally its the tune and not the words. Especially when I'm in front of the computer and its recording and I'm just whacking away at the guitar. I'm amazed at how it sounds sometimes. She's gone by the way. I guess it's finally time to give up. I must convince myself. Among other stuff, that I worry about. I'm not sure how they'll turn out.