It's hard to change my mood and habits. Maybe I choose not to. You can keep it for a day, weeks, at most a month, and then you'll just slide back in again. Without any visible goal or prize, it just isn't possible. Realised recently, a major flaw in me, while talking to Rachel. So I called her that night, wanting to listen to somebody ramble. Which she did. Halfway through, as she was talking about some arts stuff and about video projection, I had this voice talking in my head going like, "Um, yea whatever, like my knowledge of that is less than yours. I probably know what you're referring to." And it surprised me. Well, it normally wouldn't have. But I was in an introspective mood that day. I wondered what happened to my curiosity, no, eagerness?, I can't seem to get the right word here. I mean it's like I called her to listen but I'm not interested. Interest. That could be the word. Anyway, it's a problem I see prevalent in our society. Everybody thinks they know, thinks they understand, are better, that they do not care or pay attention. And then, everything is just mundane or normal or something because, they think they have seen it all. I do not know why we do this. Is it because it fits into that 'cool' persona. Not being interested is 'cool'? I'm probably rambling here. As well as over generalizing. Oh yes, just like my msn nick that says, "We're so full of our own opinions, that we forget to listen." Perhaps forget is the wrong word. Perhaps it should read, "that we choose to ignore". As I mentioned earlier, this mindset would probably die soon. I really hope it lingers with me.